I’m approaching a milestone on this blog - 100 posts published. (Or rather, it was approaching when I drafted this post - it has passed, now that it’s been published)
Let’s assume for the moment that your expectations affect reality.
Do you deserve to succeed? Do you deserve to be happy?
Boring might be the way to go, to start out with.
You might have to trick your brain and body into being different. But that’s okay, your brain and body are super easy to trick.
The universe is chaotic, and it feels like a lot of the chaos is happening inside your head. I get it.
Many, many publishers said no to Harry Potter. Sylvester Stallone had to fight tooth and nail to get Rocky made. Some jerk told Elvis Presley early in his career that he’d be better off driving trucks.
It’s interesting writing this blog with no real plan for or expectation of an audience at any point. What am I supposed to write about? What qualifies as a good post, or a bad one? Are there things I should be writing more about, or less? The audience is entirely removed from the feedback loop.
One of my favourite quotes is from amazing human being Terry Fox. He said “The answer is to try to help others.”
Neil Gaiman uses a rule when he’s writing. When it’s time to write, he sits down with a pen and paper - he writes his first drafts by hand, with a fountain pen, because he’s a goddamn boss.