Gratitude in the present tense


Quarantine and lockdown have been hard for me. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have things that hard. Lots of people have it harder than I do. But it’s still been hard. Their pain doesn’t invalidate mine.

But it’s easing up somewhat where I am. I can see my friends and family sometimes, and joke and smile and catch up with them. I can hope nobody else I know will be affected by the pandemic. Finally healthy habits are reasserting themselves. I’m eating better (though not perfectly), I’m exercising (though not that much), I’m meditating (but not for long).

It would have helped if I’d been able to maintain all of those things all along. But I couldn’t, and there’s not much point now in beating myself up about it. At least it’s helping me out now.