Here's to 366 days

2020-04-09

It was exactly one year ago today that I started this blog. I wrote the first three drafts of posts, and published them three days later.

(Because of the way I draft posts, this post will go live well after I write it. But I assure you, it was exactly a year as I was writing it)

How do I feel about it now? I’m glad I did it. It hasn’t always been easy, but I think it’s been worthwhile.

It’s strange to say, but is it allowed to feel neutral? When I graduated, it sort of felt the same way. It was a lot of hard work, but it just felt kind of…like the way things were. I’d never seriously considered the possibility that I wouldn’t graduate. So while there was the excitement of starting a new phase of my life, it also felt a little…anticlimactic?

Were my expectations for that moment too high? What do I expect out of a milestone, anyway? The day of a milestone is just like any other day. The sun rises, and then it sets, and then it rises again the next day. The day has all the same choices: keep going, or stop. Do the same stuff, or do something new. The same as any other day. The same as the gold medalist and the non-medalist and the team that won the Superbowl and the team that lost the World Cup.

So maybe it’s normal for the one-year milestone to feel sort of neutral. Maybe it’s even a good thing. I wonder what I’ll do tomorrow.

If you’re reading this, you know what I decided.