The worst feeling

2020-03-10

Helpless. I hate feeling helpless. It makes me feel trapped. It makes me want to hide.

I try to remind myself that there are worse things. That helplessness is just a feeling, and that I can still act, that I don’t have to let it call the shots or even acknowledge it. But it tries to rush over me and control my thinking and honestly it usually succeeds.

But I can try again. There will be a next time. I’m working on it. That’s good enough.