An otherwise beautiful moment

2020-01-12

I’m sitting on my couch. It’s the weekend, and the silence is palpable. The dogs are asleep. The cat is behind me purring for no reason. The loudest sounds are gentle breathing and the low drone of my computer. I slept in and am still in my pyjamas and I’m taking some time to write with a cup of tea. I wouldn’t change anything about it.

…that is, unless you count the inside of my mind, which is a constant barrage of irrelevant thoughts. Obsessive, anxious, silly, distracted, mean, self-centered and unhelpful. Truthfully, it’s kind of ruining a beautiful moment.

At least awareness of a problem lets you exert some control over it. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and let your thoughts start to slip. Allow them to surface, but once they do, simply let them go.

The dog is asleep beside me and he’s visibly dreaming. The cat has been staring out the window for nearly an hour and seems very pleased with himself. They’ve realized something important: just being here is enough. Just enjoy the beautiful moment.